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[FANFIC] To Insanity and Back ch.5

  title: To Insanity and Back
author: Twiglet71
genre: angst
length: chaptered (4/?)
pairing: Yunho/ jaejoong
rating: pg13
Summery: Yunho parked the car and didn’t bother to lock it. He ran toward the entrance of the hospital disregarding any obstacle in his haste to find Jae.

Chapter 5

Yunho parked the car and didn’t bother to lock it. He ran toward the entrance of the hospital disregarding any obstacle in his haste to find Jae. The phone call had just informed him that Jae had been taken there by ambulance. His details as Jae’s emergency contact were in Jae’s wallet and that was how the staff had found him. He ran to the enquiry desk and just shouted out his lover’s name. Immediately he was grabbed by the arm by an elderly doctor who gently pulled him to one side.
“Are you Jung Yunho?” The voice was whispered as if what was about to be said was some sort of secret.
“Yes…yes…where’s Jae? What’s happened to him …where is he….?” Yunho realised he was panicking but he couldn’t control himself.
“I need to talk to you in a more private area.” The doctor tried to maneuver him into a side room but Yunho resisted.
“No I must see Jae…please…where is he?” His voice sounded like a plea but the doctor knew it was important to enlighten the young man before he let him see his patient.
“I can’t let you see him until I speak to you. Come and sit down.” The doctor led Yunho to an easy chair in the side room and sat in the one facing him.
“There’s no easy way to tell you this so I’ll just be straight forward with you. Jae was attacked tonight and suffered a serious sexual assault.” The doctor looked at the young man’s face as he tried to absorb the information. He had had to give this kind of news before so he knew it wasn’t easy for the recipient to accept. He waited patiently while Yunho just stared at him, as if trying to translate what the doctor had said. It was as if he was listening to a foreign language and he was trying to decode the doctor’s words.
“Do you mean he has been…………” Yunho couldn’t quite say the word. He knew what he wanted to say but it was as if saying it would make it real and he really didn’t want this to have happened to Jae.
“You mean he has been………….” Yunho struggled so the doctor took his hands in his and looked at him with compassion.
“Yes” The doctor waited for Yunho to say something and when nothing was forthcoming he continued to speak. “Let me tell you the details. I know it’s painful to hear when a loved one has been hurt but it’s important for Jae that I tell you as much as I can. This is with his permission of course” Yunho just stared and nodded, he tried to swallow but the lump in his throat was making it difficult.
“Can I continue?’ at Yunho’s nod the doctor began to fill Yunho in on the details.
“Jae was hit on the head from behind and anally raped. He tried to fight off his attacker and was beaten. He has no serious injuries, but he looks quite battered. The police are in with him now. He has had an examination and blood tests. These are for sexually transmitted diseases. As is usual with cases of rape, protection wasn’t used so we have to test for these” Yunho swallowed and the doctor paused in case Yunho wanted to speak. When he remained silent the doctor continued. “I understand that you are his lover so it is important you know as much as I can tell you because this will affect you too. Do you understand what I’m telling you Mr. Jung?’ Yunho gave a slight nod and closed his eyes. The tears seeped from his eyes leaving a trail down his face - a face that was whiter than his usually pale complexion.
“He will have to stay in the hospital tonight as he is in shock and I want to keep an eye on his low blood pressure. There are internal injuries, but I think they will heal without intervention. I would like to examine him again in the morning though. The police will take his clothing for forensic evidence so someone needs to bring him some more for his return home. A specialist nurse will talk to you both before he goes home. Have you understood what I have told you” The kindly doctor waited for Yunho to show some sign of acknowledgment. Yunho’s eyes met the doctors for the first time.
“Can I go to him now?” Yunho sounded very desperate and the doctor wanted nothing more than to take him to his lover but he knew the police would probably still be there. He didn’t want anything to disrupt the giving of Jae’s statement.
“Before I take you to him I need some personal details for the paperwork” at Yunho’s deep sigh the doctor’s squeezed his hand.
“Wait one moment” the doctor went to the door and stopped a passing nurse and asked her to see if the police had finished with Jae yet. He returned to the room and went through the paperwork with Yunho. As they finished the nurse returned and nodded at the doctor.
“Come”. He led Yunho through the emergency department and through a door that said private. They then entered another door and two police officers rose from seats beside the bed and walked to the door.
Yunho didn’t even acknowledge their presence as his eyes fell upon Jae lying on his side, curled up. He took in Jae’s face and gasped as he saw the black eye and bruising. He sat in the chair beside the bed and took Jae’s hands from where they were clasped beneath his head.
“Baby I………..Oh god baby…” Yunho at last let the tears flow freely as he sobbed into Jae’s hands.
“Yunho don’t…please don’t…..” Jae began to sob “Yunho I’m sorry……I’m sorry, really sorry.” Jae sounded desperate, as if he needed Yunho to forgive him for some misdeed.
“Baby you don’t need to be sorry. Oh my god I’ll fucking kill whoever done this. I’ll kill them with my bare hands!” the doctor took one more look at the two sobbing men and left the room closing the door behind him gently.

Dong Wook and Min arrived at the hospital at 8.30 am. They received a call from Yunho in the early hours of the morning and what they were told had shaken them. They entered the hospital and were taken through to the room where Jae lay asleep. Yunho, upon hearing their arrival rose from his seat and ushered them out of the room.
“How is he Yunho?” Dong Wook spoke in whispered tones so as not to disturb his sleeping friend.
Yunho took one look at his friend and broke down. Between sobs he told them what he knew. As he spoke his sobbing intensified. Dong Wook cradled his friend in his arms and fought back his own tears.
“Dong Wook I need to contact Chun and Su. They need to know and I think Jae needs his friends. Oh God…. we’re all meant to be meeting for lunch!”
“I can’t deal with anything at the moment Dong Wook. Can you sort things out for me” Yunho knew his friend would do anything he could at a time like this.
“Anything, Yunho. What do you need?” Yunho moved back into the room and took a key from his bag, handing it to his friend.
“This is Jae’s key. Go to his place and fetch some clothes here for him. He needs everything –even trainers. The police have taken everything with them. In fact pack all of his clothes and take them to my place for me. He’s going to stay with me.” Yunho nodded to himself, convinced that he was making the right decision.
“Ok, I’ll be back in about an hour. I’ll tell the others to meet at my place for lunch so I can fill them in on the situation. Is that ok?” Dong Wook didn’t want to do or say anything to the others without Yunho’s say so.
Yunho nodded and hugged Dong Wook tightly. “Thank you. Oh god, how are we going to deal with this? I don’t know how to deal with this…..I don’t know what to do……” Yunho sounded desperate and Dong Wook could feel the tears fill his eyes as for the first time ever his friend appeared to be lost and confused.
“We’ll deal with it Yunho. Together, all of us. We’ll support him and care for him together. Ok? You’re not on your own here Yunho, neither is Jae”. Both men then entered the private room and saw Min sitting beside Jae…his head low and his shoulders trembling. As soon as Yunho had told them what had happened he had slipped into Jae’s room to be with his best friend. Dong Wook gently pulled Min to his feet and held him.
“Come on love. Let’s go and do these things for our friends. We’ll be back here in an hour or so”.
With that both men gave Yunho a brief hug and walked away.

Yunho sat beside the bed again and continued to look at his lover. Jae stirred and Yunho leaned forward and gently stroked the hair from his forehead. Jae looked up at him and just stared. They sat like that for ages; Yunho is stroking and Jae staring, until a nurse entered the room. She introduced herself and pulled up a chair next to Yunho. She was the specialist nurse and she’d come to speak with them about the implications of a sexual attack and what support would be offered to them. Thirty minutes later she left them with a bunch of literature, appointments for test results and trauma counseling. Yunho put everything in his bag along with the small bag of items belonging to Jae that the police didn’t need to take.
As he sat in the chair the door opened and Dong Wook and Min walked in. The older man placed a bag on the end of the bed and Min walked around to face Jae. He gently stroked his face with the back of his hand. He walked to Yunho and kissed the top of his head.
“Ring us.” With that both men walked from the room.


( 13 comments — Leave a comment )
Jun. 2nd, 2011 07:17 pm (UTC)
SPOT! lol
Jun. 2nd, 2011 07:27 pm (UTC)
Quick! I've just looked at your profile and I've taken some pics of Jae so thank you. It's great because for my next tattoo I want a fallen angel with an Asian face.There's no face more beautiful than Jae's and one of your pics might just be the one I can use!xxxx
Jun. 2nd, 2011 07:39 pm (UTC)
OMG! *squeals* Yes! Take! hehehe xD I have TONS more, but those are just a small collection of the ones I've been especially fond of over time~ It's funny because I've looked at my profile and thought about all of the recent pics of him that I adore that I don't have posted up...and I just don't think it's possible to put EVERY picture of him that I'm partial to up on my profile! lol Oh well~ The ones that are there now are good enough, I suppose. :)

And you're right, there is no other face out there more beautiful. ♥
Jun. 2nd, 2011 07:44 pm (UTC)
Omo~ *wipes tears* I can't even imagine...

Ugh, this is seriously affecting me like no other! Aigoo~ So did Jae get any diseases from the rapist? *winces* I know some are able to be taken care of, but I'd hate to think he got something incurable! Especially since he's so lovely and kind and innocent! UGH! I'm right there with Yunho! I want to kill the bastard who did this to Jae with my bare hands! D<

I can't wait to read the next chapter! I hope there's plenty of fluff~ hehe :) Jae really needs his Yunnie at a time like this! And Yunho needs Jae, too. He needs the support of his friends, as well, in order to be able to be the best he can for Jae.
Jun. 2nd, 2011 07:59 pm (UTC)
There's going to be tough times ahead for the pair of them. There has to be repercussions after an attack like this but I promised myself there will be a happy ending. I just want to show the process of healing from this tragedy. As you know I am drawing on experience so I want it to be as true to life as possible.
As for the pics - well I think Jae is easily the most beautiful man in the world, closely followed by the rest of the group and the Lee Junki. My screen saver is all of the pictures in my Jae folder so I like to leave my laptop on so I have a scrolling picture of gorgeousness!
Thank you very, very much for reading my fic and always leaving such great comments xxxx
p.s. I'm off to look at your journal now xxx
Jun. 2nd, 2011 08:23 pm (UTC)
Ahahaha! There's not much there to see~ :P I'm no author, so there really isn't much on my lj except Jae. lol! The majority of my thought process seems to revolve around him. :)

I've often thought of writing a story or two, but I can't ever put my thoughts on paper (or the computer) the way I'd want them to be conveyed. Which is why I have a lovely JJ bestie to whom I tell all of my wonderful plot bunnies! :D I tend to see YunJae/DBSK in almost anything and everything. lol I'll watch a movie or something and be like, "omg that's so YunJae!" hahaha! And I'll find ways to make other characters in the movie the other members as well. LoL I'm insane, I know~

But I also think of my own unique plots just from random thoughts and such. Just can't see myself writing them. :/ I'm always telling my JJ bestie, yunho1205, about the things I think of. She writes lovely ficcies for my pleasure~ hehehe! Ok, so they aren't all for me...but I can delude myself into thinking so! lol ;)
Jun. 2nd, 2011 09:02 pm (UTC)
I will have to check her out then. OMG I see them everywhere as well! I read a lot of children's stories (I am a teacher) and I even see them there. I was watching South Park the other night and I was trying to match the boys to the characters. I think you should have a little go at writing something - you may surprise yourself xxx
Jun. 2nd, 2011 09:39 pm (UTC)
Hahaha Yep! That's what I do, too! We're so silly~ :D

Yes, check out her stuff. xD It's quite lovely~

Omo, you're a teacher? Hahaha And you see the boys in children's stories?! I do that, too! I have two kids and whenever we watch their Disney movies, I will be putting the boys in as whatever characters are in the movie! kekeke! Too funny~

Ah, one day I might see what I can put down. :/ I have too much distracting stuff going on in my life right now to take the time to start something. I'd feel completely horrible and unproductive if I suddenly started writing a fic instead of finally finishing my final paper for my degree. :O LOL
Jun. 2nd, 2011 08:26 pm (UTC)
I'm just wondering, didn't the doctors check under Jae's nails?...he managed to scratch his attacker so that would actually help identify the man.

anyways, Jae isn't as traumatized as I expected him to be...but I guess he'll show more signs of it later on after the shock....glad that he's not alone and that he's surrounded by many people that love him.

update soon!
Jun. 2nd, 2011 09:14 pm (UTC)
I think we can take it for granted that the doctor did a full rape kit when he did the examination so samples etc would have been taken. It is all part of the examination after an attack of this kind, along with taking his clothes.You are right after the initial shock the trauma will show but it's different for every person. Some people cope with it better than others and every victim will cope with it in a different way. I remember a case in the UK a few years ago where a vicars daughter was anally raped by burglars in front of her boyfriend. She was a virgin. She emerged from that experience to become a really strong woman, campaigning on behalf of other victims. Other women go to pieces and it ruins their whole lives.
There will be a happy ending to this story but there will be angst along the way. Thank you so much for reading and taking the time to comment. It is appreciated. xxx
Jun. 3rd, 2011 01:17 am (UTC)
I am glad that Yunho is there for Jae and they have Se7Min and Yoosu supporting them. Yunho and Jaejoong ah, I have faith you guys will be able to overcome anything as long as you have love, faith, strength and each other. It's not an easy road, but keep the faith.

Jae seems to be not too traumatize but we never know. People react differently and some likes to keep everything in his/heart which I think it's the worst passive reaction ever. Cause it'll only hurt more T_T I hope Jae is not in this category. Oh Jae, how my heart cry for you.

Please don't tell me the bastard rapist is someone Jae knew. I hope the police caught the bastard and put him to jail. And for his deed, I hope he'll suffer when he's in prison. I heard before that rapist are always targetted in jail? I know I'm evil for saying this, but the bastard deserved it.

BTW, what happened to the pendant Jae went to collect for Yunho? I hope it's still around.

Edited at 2011-06-03 01:39 am (UTC)
Jun. 3rd, 2011 05:19 pm (UTC)
It so lucky they have each other although it will not be an easy road....and who will it affect more...Jae or Yunho??
I'm not focussing on the rapist at the moment although he will rear his ugly head again. The pendent is in the small bag of possessions the police gave back to them. It will be discovered soon but remember Yunho doesn't know about it.
I know the rape is significant, because after all it is the cause of everything, but I really want to focus on the aftermath of rape and some of the things the victims and significant others go through. Once an attack is over it is over but the repercussions, the fear, vulnerability, stress, guilt and a myriad of other feelings carry on and it's the ability of the victim and others to deal with all of this that actually determines the final outcome. I'm not saying that it is the same for all victims because it's not but I'm drawing on my own experiences and life. I really must stop saying victim...I should say survivor really because that is nearer the truth.If I came face to face with a rapist I think I would be very violent and I'm not generally violent. And yes they do get targeted in prison. I have heard stories from a couple of 'naughty' friends who have done time and what they told me was not pleasant but I couldn't help feeling that the rough justice was well deserved.
Sorry for going on and on...but it is a subject close to my heart. Thank you so much for still reading this fic and always leaving great comments. It is so appreciated xxxx
Jul. 6th, 2011 06:50 pm (UTC)
so sad darling, so sad. well written, i liek the doctor. and i think its all going alogn realistically i enjoyed it, if oen can enjoy readign such stories. but u catch my drif :) well done. emotional. xxx
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